Thats me and my Brother . We almost never get along, and he bugs me to death , but I love him more than anything. heis all the family I have besides my Grandparents and my mom. And I am pretty much all he has . I hope one day we will be able to get along and hug each other . it si going to go take some time though . One day ... Maybe ....

This is somthing I found and though I would share it has been something I have been needing to hear thisweek .

"if you only remember one thing in life, remember this: what's meant to be will always find a way, no matter what time tells all, act on good impulses, don't quit, never ignore the butterflies, and live without regret"


NEVER ignore the butterflies.The butterflies of truth and the butterflies that are God's voice saying be care about what you are doing. This could be dangerous .

That's the sweetest baby in the whole world .I know I have alread posted about her but I had to again . she is sick right now. but she is feeling better than the other day when we had to take her to the ER . I don't think I have ever been more scared in my whole life . turns out she had a middle ear infection and an Upper resp. infection .
Today she huged on me and kissed me. and blew me kisses when she left . although I know that she is a rascall I still love every inch of her and she is Perfect . she way not always do perfect things but she isthemost beautifulperfect baby in the world .

why is it that society has such a problem with age an the things that come with it ? Tonite at the special K meeting this lady laughed at me because I told her that when I get old I want Long Gray hair . and I do . I think Old age is beutiful and shouldn't be somthing we fear , or dread, maybe it is because I have been raised by my grandparents . all I know is when I am old I am going to have Gray hair . Long gray hair .

so..

I am not having a great week although it is going better now than it was on Sunday and Monday .

sometime yesterday this puppy showed up at my house and this morning he was stillher so after trying several shelters I finally found someone that would take him . a place called Paws Patrol Animal rescue . I am so happy that they came and gpt him. I wish I could have kept himbut I already have 2 cats and a rather large dog (husky, lab mix)

Tonite I am going to the special K meeting . I love going to those call me crazy but I love hanging out with the olderpeople in the congragation . I feel I could learn so much from them , plus they are just funny and nice to talk to .

On another note I need your prayers to make the right choices I have not been making the wisest choices and have not been doing the things I should be doing , and have been hanging out with people that are not good for me .

Have a great day

tonight was the first night in a few weeks that I have been to ladies class. We have started a study of James. I do love that book . tonight we were talking about wisdom. I hope when I day people say I was a wise person .I really do. When I think of someone that is wise I think of age . I don't think you can have one without the other . Which brings me to perserverance and faith . Many times in our lives we go through things that we just don't see how we will ever get out of . an we do not have faith . James says that we must have faith that things will work out. Perserverence devlops our faith .faith in God andfaith in ourselvesto be ableto recognize what God is telling us. faith is Perserverance put into action. so after all this time of perserverance we come back to wisdom . we have been through things, had faith and got through them . ... We become Wise.

Faith really does alot .

just dawne on me

just he size of a mustard seed is all you need .

i found this and liked it so i thought i would share it .

Never be afraid. Wake up with a smile on your face. Take chances. Let life get the best of you. Don't try and explain the unexplainable. Laugh, a lot. Sing with all your might, aloud. Be yourself. Introduce the world to the real you. Stop taking the little things in life for granted. Say sorry. Stay mad. Let yourself love....again. Work up the courage to say hello to the cute stranger. Fall in love with you best friend. Meet someone new. Conquer your fears. Believe in the impossible. Break the unbreakable. Accept hurt, and move on. Don't give up easy. Don't waste your time. Skip class. Sleep in, even if you're late for work. Tell your friends how much they mean to you. Thank your parents. Go to the bars underage. Laugh when you get kicked out. Do karaoke. Dance. Spend your money on things that make you happy, that you really don't need. Trust and be trusted. Be crazy. Don't be afraid to say what's on your mind. Never let someone get the best of you. Learn to not care about what other people say. Don't let your heart get broken. Put yourself out there. Believe in fate. Be strong. Don't look back. Start over. Never forget where you came from. Get as far away as you can, at least once a week. Stay out late. Take silly pictures. And post them. Accept the "meant-to-be." Don't try and be perfect, it's no fun. Live one day at a time with absolutely no regrets.

I love this face. she was in the middle of singing me the duck song(one little duck went outone day over the hills anfar away....) all she can get out is quack quack though . even though she isn't my child I love her more than I ever thought i could ever love anyone ever . Taylor brightens my life in parts that I never knew exsited. she has such a sweet sprit . she loves everyone and wakes up laughing every morning. her kisses will make you melt , and her smiles make your heart go pitter patter . I have to say i think I am in love.

in Ecc.9:14-16

14 There was once a small city with only a few people in it. And a powerful king came against it, surrounded it and built huge siegeworks against it. 15 Now there lived in that city a man poor but wise, and he saved the city by his wisdom. But nobody remembered that poor man.

why was this man forgotten ? because he was poor ? because he didn't mention what he did and didn't think it was a big deal ? this just jumped at me .

do You have any ideas?

New year

I do not feel any diffrent, and it dosen't even feel like January . I have been trying to become more like I need to be for God . But I have a huge Problem .

One :

I do not pay attention to my friends the way I should , and I don't make very good decisions when it comes to them .

Two :

I am not sorry . or Sorry enough to applogize for things I have done in the past and even if I was people would not believe me I don't think .

Maybe I am sorry but I just don't want to put myself out there to be hurt . Maybe I am afraid that I will hear somthing I don't want to hear . Maybe I will hear that I really hurt her feelings . even if I didn't mean to I still did . that I took her for granted . and just up and left her .


So 2 Goals for the new year ..

Be more aware of what is going on and what others are felling .

Make Amends with friends . even if that means hearing what they have to say to me even if it is hard .

Ok so let me tell you what has happened

Friend Ashley got kicked out of her house .. It's my fault .... because ... I won't say ... why but it is . Sunday she called me for me to come pic her up and she wanted to go to church with me , so I went and got her . well . about half way through the sermon she walks out and will not come back in , she said she was tried of hearing about Gods love . if God really loved her he wouldn't be doing this to her . while I tired to reason with her , and tell her it wasn't God that was doing this she had no inentintions on listening to me . But maybe she heard what I said .

Another friend been having a verry hard time lately .

My little brother got caught stealing weed and smoking it . I do not know what I am going to do . I am not supposed to say anythig to my Grandparents ( my mom says so ) I don't understansd him at all



I am tired Physically and emotionally , and Spritually . any way I can be I suppose . I just don't feel well . I went to the doctor and I have a Sinus infection , both of my ears are infected and I have a upper respritary infection .

I am feeling verry used . I want someone to hug me and tell me they love me . And mean it . not just say it to say it . but say it because they want to and because they feel it .

in the pasty couple of days I have come to the conclusion that I have not been doing what I am supposed to do . I have not been talking to God , and spending time with him . I have been hanging around people that I do not need to be hanging around , and trying to help them , when they don't want help and all that is happening is I am being pulled down with them . I have become luke warm . Average . this upsets me .