Ok so let me tell you what has happened

Friend Ashley got kicked out of her house .. It's my fault .... because ... I won't say ... why but it is . Sunday she called me for me to come pic her up and she wanted to go to church with me , so I went and got her . well . about half way through the sermon she walks out and will not come back in , she said she was tried of hearing about Gods love . if God really loved her he wouldn't be doing this to her . while I tired to reason with her , and tell her it wasn't God that was doing this she had no inentintions on listening to me . But maybe she heard what I said .

Another friend been having a verry hard time lately .

My little brother got caught stealing weed and smoking it . I do not know what I am going to do . I am not supposed to say anythig to my Grandparents ( my mom says so ) I don't understansd him at all



I am tired Physically and emotionally , and Spritually . any way I can be I suppose . I just don't feel well . I went to the doctor and I have a Sinus infection , both of my ears are infected and I have a upper respritary infection .

I am feeling verry used . I want someone to hug me and tell me they love me . And mean it . not just say it to say it . but say it because they want to and because they feel it .

in the pasty couple of days I have come to the conclusion that I have not been doing what I am supposed to do . I have not been talking to God , and spending time with him . I have been hanging around people that I do not need to be hanging around , and trying to help them , when they don't want help and all that is happening is I am being pulled down with them . I have become luke warm . Average . this upsets me .