this is my First Blog on this Blog , I have several others . I think I like this one !



~ I hate snakes ,love winter time , Christmas is my favorite holiday , I hate the fourth of July , I hate Beats, Onions and Tomatoes , my grandparents forced me to learn to drive , I have never been out of the country , I have never Flown , I have never been to the Ocean , or a beach . I have never seen the movie Cinderella all the way through , I have read all the little house on the praire books , I have gone to that same church since I was 5 , I have lived in the same house all my life , I was going to be a Student ambassador , I threw up on one of my teachers once . My dad rode in the Rodeo and I rode Barrels , I have had long hair since like ... 3rd grade . My favorite year in school was fourth Grade , I love every color , I love all music . It really just depends on what kind of mood I am in . I have never broken a bone .. Except I broke my big toe . I have never been in a car Accident , I used to play volleyball , I have ridden a Camel and an elephant , I like clowns , I have almost drowned 3 times . I taught myself how to swim . I hate camping . I don't like change I get aggravated when I have to change . I don't like doing anything I don't want to do . I do not have a problem with authority . I Only went to ISS one time in school . I never had a detention . I was born 2 months early . I have asthma , I am allegric to dogs .. But I have one . I have 2 cats . I'm a pretty open person .. But I am set in my ways . I don't like scary movies or Mysteries . I love going to the zoo and the circus . One day want to live on a Farm . But I don't like living in the Country. I want to ride a zebra and Pet a Monkey . And feed a baby Tiger . I want to get married and have kids . I want my Wedding to be in the church I have grown up in . My fave. Flowers are sweet Williams or daises . I don't like Roses . I love old people and little kids . I rarely hang around people my old age . ~

I saw this sign at a church and it says .. "It is Hard to stumble when your one your knees " and i have been thinking Humans are realllly dumb . we have it made ... all we have to do is follow a few simple instructions and we can't do it. or we won't do it . I don't know why , either we are to proud , to busy , to scared to lose control or we just plain don't want to and think we can do it alone. you would think that after so many times of .. being sooo low and depressed and praying to God to help us , and then getting better , and then doing it all over agian we would just Stay with that same ... attitude, not upset , but the attitude that God can and will do it for us , all we have to do is ask , I had to learn this the hard way , I got titred of trying to fix everything for everybody . I can't even fix myself much less anyone eles , only God can do that ! I have learned that ... God is the same . everyday all day long forever , he is always there and this is stuff that people have been telling me my whole life, and.. It has taken this long for me to get it . and I do now. I am soo happy that I do . I am soo happy that it has finally clicked in my head , that God is there waitiong for me to say Help me .. Fix it for me .. it is like a child bringing a toy to there dad and saying crying and saying daddy I can't do it .. fix it .. please ... and all he says is I have been trying to help you for an hour .. and you thought you could do it on your own . we tell everyone how scary the world is scary . Kids are told that there whole lives .. it is a scary place out there, but yet Just because when we get older we think we can take care of everyhing all the time , that is isn't scary , well it is scary , and that is why God is there . to sheild us from all the scary things . To keep us safe , to help us stand up under the evil . I don't know where all of this is comming from .. from God I guess .. it just hit me , man I am glad it has finally clicked in my head and in my heart .