"theres a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone & trying to fix everything..but its not giving up its realizing thatyou dont need certain people in your life."

I found that quote and it finally clicked in my head . As hard as it is to let go of someone , and let them do the things that they are going to do . I don't need them . I don't need the dramma and the problems that they bring to my life . I don't need the insecuriates they bring up . I do not need the Chaos that they help create . I am not giving up on them. I know that one day they will change , that day just isn't today . Untill they change I don't need them in my life .

SO .
I have met some of the most amazing people in the past couple of days . Saturay I met the girl at the train station . Ireally liked her outlook on things . "It can always get worse.we you have it Good don't complain . "
And then Today . I met someone that wil changemy life forever .

Tina and I went to Children's today . we met this Little boy and his grandma . he was 3 and had down syndrome . But thats not all he has had 2 heart surgeries, had a treac when he was little . when they pulled themout they dammaged his vocall chords , so now he is non vocal and uses sign laugage . his dad left . mom works nights at a resturaunt . and on top off all that he has just been Diagnosed with Lukemia . he still has a long way to go . This is one sick little boy . and he is only 3 years old. he Kept smilling and waving at everyone. and he told mehe loved me . Can we say TEARS ?!

What happens between the time we are little and love everyone and now ? It didn'tmatter to him what was going onnin hislife . He was still smiliing and waiving at every one . I want to be lke that .

Over the years I've come to learn that thingsdon't always last forever... there's no such
thing as "perfect", & you'll hurt the ones that you would never want to hurt. Butthe important thing is find the people who will love you with your mistakes

I LOST HER !!! I have LOST TAYLOR !!! WHERE IS SHE ?? HOW DID SHE GET OUT ? WHAT IS SHE DOING ? SHE IS GOING TO BE IN SO MUCH TROUBLE

that's all that was going through my mind today at the mall .I took Taylor to the mall and she was buckled in the stroller andI was paying for something . And I looked and she was GONE . I don't know how she got out but she did . Of course I immediately began looking for her and Yelling TAYLOR LEE . Then I heard a little giggle comming out of the dressing room . And it was her . I started crying . She could have been gone long , but it was long enough . I carried her the rest of the time were in the mall .

After my whole ordeal I was thinking about the Parable of the Lost son . The boy left . But when he returned the father was not upset . He was so glad tthat he was home . It didn't matter what he had done when he was away , or why he came back , it was the fact that he was back,that was all that mattered .

The moment that Taylor ran to me and gave me a hug I forgot about how she got out , and where she was or what she was even doing in the Dressing room . It was the fact that she was back.

I am so greatful we have a God that takes us back , even though we left , we may leave again . he still sweeps us up in his arms, Hugs us and Tells us how he loves us . He Dosen't condem us , he just loves us .

since when has it been ok to just tell part of the truth .. or Lie a little bit ???

Today in speech class we were talking about ethics and this came up . Another girls andi were the only ones who would say that is was not ethical to lie no matter what the circumstance .

lets be real

When we lie and say it is to protect others it really isn't . We Lie to protect ourself from whatever we think is going to happen . It is to keep us out of an awkward situation . or keep us from feeling bad .

I am not saying all this because I have never Lied . That would be a lie . I have . but just because someone does somthing that does not make it right . Just because "everyone" does it ,it dosen't make it right .

any thoughts ?