New year

I do not feel any diffrent, and it dosen't even feel like January . I have been trying to become more like I need to be for God . But I have a huge Problem .

One :

I do not pay attention to my friends the way I should , and I don't make very good decisions when it comes to them .

Two :

I am not sorry . or Sorry enough to applogize for things I have done in the past and even if I was people would not believe me I don't think .

Maybe I am sorry but I just don't want to put myself out there to be hurt . Maybe I am afraid that I will hear somthing I don't want to hear . Maybe I will hear that I really hurt her feelings . even if I didn't mean to I still did . that I took her for granted . and just up and left her .


So 2 Goals for the new year ..

Be more aware of what is going on and what others are felling .

Make Amends with friends . even if that means hearing what they have to say to me even if it is hard .