Martha , Martha

I feel like a Martha sometimes.
Busy .
Just doing things and never the time or the patience to sit down and just think . sit and listen in the silence . I promised myself that I would after what happend in April . That promised lasted long enough for me to get back on my feet . I am the tye of person that likes do be doing thinsg all the time. I feel useless if I am sitting doing nothing .
My brotheron the other hand is very laid back he dosn't have to be doing anything . he can just sit and listen and be still for the longest time. I remember when I was little I could to .My grandmother would read book and book to me and I would just sit and listen .I also remember things being alot easire back then , maybe I make things alot harder than they are but trying to fix them myslef . and not listening to directions . not listenting when enough is enough . I find myself as I get older not listenning and not being still why is is as we grow older this happens. maybe it is because we have more things to worrry about but why can't we just take time and listen . be still and take a breath.
I need more faith to go with all my works. and I think if i would be still and listen. Be still and breath I would find that faith .