Ok .. no computer been out of school and have not had alot to do besides sit and home and chill and think about things .

so this is what I have come up with

I have to be conetent with what I have and accept what I have . untill I do things wil not get any better . Today for example . Christmas . I have spent most of the day with my mom . Usually I don't enjoy coming over here because of her Husband, my stepdad , But I have come to the comculison that me being hard headed and trying to not get along is not going to make things better . I will most probally not ever have a hug hug relationship with the guy , thats just the kind of person I am , but I can be nice and have conversation or at least try . If I don't try . nothing will get better . and therfore I will just be stuck upset . overall I have had a really good Holiday Season . there have been a few bumps , but thats what makes the ride fun right ?