" Do you belive that God Loves you ?" ............
"Love is a Verry strong word"
"ok, do you belive God is passionatly persuing you ?"
"....... I don't know "

That was a conversation I had one day . I was the one Answering the questions. Last night I couldn't sleep . and I thought about that . I had been thinking about it for awhile but last night I had not been able to get it off my mind . Finally I figured it out . Yes . God loves me , God is passionatly persuing me .I am the one that is not passionatly persuing him . I am the one that is not doing the loving .
I can't really describe what I am feeling right now , but I know that good things are comming . I have not had very much of a relationship with God over the past couple of years . Yes , there have been times when I was "on fire for God " for a few days . But for the most part I have just been "playin'" Playing church . Playing to be someone that they are not . That is not fair to me or anyone else for that matter .

I'm Sorry .