the past couple of weeks have been hard . But, strangly I am so happy . I can't remember ebing this happy where I was in life , what I was doing , who I am with . and just plain being proud of who I am . I think Maybe I have finally come out of the rain and into the rainbow . I feel like I am just sitting on a rainbow . Even though things may not be perfect I am ok with it . I don't want things to be Perfect . I am setteling for a good day today .

I LOVE American Idol . when Ayla sang this song I feel in love with it, and I love what it says . It seems to say excatly what I am feeling .

"Unwritten"
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefinedI'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty windowLet the sun illuminate the words that you could not findReaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste itRelease your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it inNo one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, ohI break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty windowLet the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it inNo one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide openToday is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it inNo one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide openToday is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah